What an interesting, unexplored place I am going. For the first time in my existence, I am seriously and deeply interested in three separate women, simultaneously. All three are fascinating and kind. And they truly could not be more different. One is a firecracker, full of sarcastic wit, very outspoken and bluntly honest, and yet, has a heart truly made of gold. Another is strong, physically and mentally, sexy, very fun-loving with a casual approach, gives nearly perfect hugs, and is one of the funniest storytellers I have met. Another is sweet, very driven but able to acknowledge her fragility, funny and talkative, health-conscious, and committed to always improving herself.
All three have found ways to continually surprise me. Firecracker showed me a soft, compassionate side to her that often gets hidden behind her brash personality. Storyteller called me out of the blue after a week of non-communication for a spur of the moment road trip to a really cool bar in Iowa. And Sweetness opened up to me and revealed a quiet strength that was humbling.
They also have challenged me. Firecracker is quite unsentimental, and respecting that while still maintaining an important part of who I am is key. She quietly and politely ignores most of my sentimental utterances, but once in a while it finds a crack. Storyteller doesn’t stay in touch, but when we do engage, it is some of the most fun I have had in ages. Laughter flows like wine. At the bar, the owner’s wife looked at us and said, “You are such a fun couple. You have been sitting there laughing and having fun all night!” And we had been! Sweetness is a workaholic and has one of the busiest schedules I have ever encountered and we still have not met a face-to-face. Yet, she finds time to call or text on a regular basis.
So, if the needle dropped today and I was forced to make a choice? I honestly don’t know. I am leaning toward Sweetness because I feel such a wonderful, positive vibe when we talk and she isn’t afraid to talk about politics or religion. Yet, without that face-to-face, all bets are off. Storyteller really surprised me when we last got together by igniting a real connection. I felt the full force of her beauty and personality that night and I really liked it. And Firecracker makes me laugh and think and sharpen my wit, and she also has not one ounce of pretense or BS.
But I don’t have to make that choice right now. No. My responsibility is to be honest with them and myself, and enjoy and savor every experience with which I have been blessed. And be thankful for this wealth of riches. Regardless of where anything goes, these are three people with whom I want to remain friends.
Such a strange, new,and exhilarating place to be…