Time to move ahead, stop being melodramatic, pick up my husk and start being what I’m supposed to be. Wallowing in self-pity is the ultimate manifestation of selfishness, and I have had more than enough of that. She needs a good friend, and that is what she’s going to get. I don’t brag myself up too much on here, but if there is something of which I am capable and can do well, it is be a friend to her.
All I know is that I can’t go on alone like this. She means way too much to me to try and soldier on by myself. Time to lean on her and let her help. And part of being a good friend is knowing when to rely on your friend.
Hearing her voice today made me cry. That’s what made up my mind.